So, when you become single, you get scared and lonely fast because you are not used to it...then you realize one day that you really are happy, despite the ache in your heart.
You are comfortable as you and happy as you and you don’t need that person anymore.
And when that time comes you feel empowered and good and selfless and HAPPY.
But sometimes, that person still keeps you awake at night.
At least that makes sense...
But what about the nights when the person you shouldn’t care about keeps you awake? The person that you aren’t allowed to care about? The person that you want to kiss when you can’t kiss them. The one that you want to talk to and see everyday but you cant....because they aren’t your boyfriend, they are someone else’s...or because they are only your "friend". You lie there and think about them and wonder why they do what they do and what they are going to do next. And you realize that it the bad terrible things they do are the things you look forward to the most; because at least then you can try to hate them.
Its not your ex that you feel this way about, because thinking this way about an ex is OKAY...it’s the forbidden ones that keep us awake at night and make us think all these absurd awful things.
That doesn’t make any sense.
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